I am like any other person.......I have ups and downs.......I try to do my best for those I love and for myself. I have struggled with accepting the gifts I have been given in this life for a very long time. I didn't feel worthy, I didn't feel useful, I felt like I had to be perfect to do what I was sent here to do. But I recently realized having a life that isn't perfect is what makes me so good at what I want to do. My only motivation for what I want to do is to help other people to heal themselves.
That is why I am finally ready to accept my gifts and help others. I am psychic, and have had many, many experiences where I have been able to help others by passing messages to them that can help them have closure and heal their lives. So I guess this is my official "coming out" as a psychic. I want to help people change their lives and get the answers they need to heal themselves.
Wow. Ok. If anyone is interested in having me do a reading for them or someone they know, please email me at lmtoone@yahoo.com.
Everything happens for a reason and you may be reading this now so that I can help you like others have helped me.
Love!!!
Laura
I have been through some very difficult experiences in my life, and I feel what I have learned could help others to heal themselves. It is a long road but it is worth it in the end. My daughter and husband are my life, and I want to be the best person I can be for me and for them.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Finding the light in the darkness
I feel very compelled to share something today. Depression is so difficult to deal with. One day you feel wonderful, the next day all you can do is get out of bed. It is a vicious cycle..... I know there are things I can do that will help me feel better...... but sometimes I just don't want to do them. I want to sit in a chair and watch Law and Order or Nip/Tuck and see the darkness in people.........the darkness in everyone else. Maybe it makes me feel like I am not alone in my own darkness. Misery loves company.
Excercising, eating healthy, getting out of the house, GETTING OUT OF MY HEAD..... these are all things that will help me feel better. But my darkness wants to shut anything good out....it wants to be alone and wallow in its pain. I feel like I can't breathe, the grief is pushing down on my chest like a huge heavy rock.
I look at my daughter, my sweet beautiful child. She is happiness incarnate. She loves everyone and everything. She doesn't have emotional pain, all she knows is happiness. And the relief I feel that she is being loved and cared for by parents who absolutely love her is overwhelming. I want to crawl from the darkness and share in her light. In her amazing light....her pure love.
I have to help myself, do the things that I need to do to heal, to release the weight that is pushing me down. I owe it to myself to heal, I owe it to Mike and Emma for they have given me nothing but love and happiness.
Excercising, eating healthy, getting out of the house, GETTING OUT OF MY HEAD..... these are all things that will help me feel better. But my darkness wants to shut anything good out....it wants to be alone and wallow in its pain. I feel like I can't breathe, the grief is pushing down on my chest like a huge heavy rock.
I look at my daughter, my sweet beautiful child. She is happiness incarnate. She loves everyone and everything. She doesn't have emotional pain, all she knows is happiness. And the relief I feel that she is being loved and cared for by parents who absolutely love her is overwhelming. I want to crawl from the darkness and share in her light. In her amazing light....her pure love.
I have to help myself, do the things that I need to do to heal, to release the weight that is pushing me down. I owe it to myself to heal, I owe it to Mike and Emma for they have given me nothing but love and happiness.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Realizing that sometimes we make things more difficult than they need to be.
I don't know what I would do without my husband. I have never felt so much love, support, and caring from anyone else. He is the absolute yin to my yang, he is practical, I am run by my emotions. He helps me to see the point of view I usually miss and need to see.... even if I resist him, which I usually do. I have struggled for years with drug and alcohol addiction, I have gone to rehab, I have gone to AA, but I could never really find peace with myself in this area until, well, yesterday. The one thing that finally made sense to me was him saying "It's ok for you to want it. It's ok to crave it. It's ok to feel whatever you are feeling. But you ulimately have the choice whether or not you are going to act on your feelings."
Although I understand completely the physical and physiological addiction to drugs and alcohol, I was never able to say that I had no power over them and actually feel that way. I gave all of my personal power to things and people, and I realized last night that. Even with food.... I would always just be like "Uh, I don't want to drink, or take pills, or eat all of this junk food that is bad for me..........but, oh, it is just gonna happen." Like there was some force or something that just decided for me. But now I realize I am in charge of all of these choices. It is not easy, but it is still my choice to act upon my feelings.
Just as a person chooses to hoard objects that clutter up their entire home, I have been choosing to hold on to my old patterns and not make the choice to change. It really is quite simple once you think about it.
Although I understand completely the physical and physiological addiction to drugs and alcohol, I was never able to say that I had no power over them and actually feel that way. I gave all of my personal power to things and people, and I realized last night that. Even with food.... I would always just be like "Uh, I don't want to drink, or take pills, or eat all of this junk food that is bad for me..........but, oh, it is just gonna happen." Like there was some force or something that just decided for me. But now I realize I am in charge of all of these choices. It is not easy, but it is still my choice to act upon my feelings.
Just as a person chooses to hoard objects that clutter up their entire home, I have been choosing to hold on to my old patterns and not make the choice to change. It really is quite simple once you think about it.
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